Strewn all about my desk, I see the detritus of agreements that I have not kept with myself. Books not read, articles not written, tasks not accomplished, meeting not set up. What has taken their place? Other tasks that have taken longer than expected, tiredness, escapism into food, television, reading mindless literature . . . What is to be done when all that is seen are evidences of ambitions not met, plans not carried out, and things that are not getting done.
It’s time to renegotiate with myself. I made a number of agreements in good faith that I am not able to carry out at this time. It’s time to declare the bankruptcy of good intentions and begin to edit my life ruthlessly. As a creature, I can only do one thing at a time. While I have twenty four hours in a day, it’s time to get down to the most essential tasks that will carry me through meeting the most fundamental commitments in my life. Time to purge the Kindle, the RSS feeder and all of the other things that seem like good ideas at the time but take away time, focus, get down to the essentials, and move forward with them.